To think or not to think...that is the question

Hmm, i'm at a lost to how to start....basically these days i feel that it never rains but it pours. At one shot, i'm suddenly overwhelmed with many problems especially my studies basically. How can a freaking exam be so so hard? Can never stop asking myself that. Like as if that's not enough, many other things are coming up. Feel like there's a rope that is twining round my neck, choking my life out of me, slowly and slowly and slowly.....hmm, think that's too melodramatic.

I sometimes wonder if it's possible to pretend that something is not true though you have heard enough 'experts' saying otherwise. I mean i noe that i'm not really experienced in seeing things like that but still i dun like to think about it. Kinda freak me out but i still have to face it. I just pray that at least my nightmare won't come true. I dun want to hurt anyone but i noe that life will never be so pure innocent and free of pain. That'll be too naive.

This week i've learnt a lot about appreciating my life better. A close relative of mine died in the hospital and i've been visiting her for some time before she passed away. I see many things itn the hospital that make me be thankful for the healthy body that i have and not to abuse it. Feels great to know that you're healthy and that you can do anything you want instead of being bedridden. It also make me realize that i should treasure my life as life is just too short. This teaches me that i will have to make the most and best of my life out of this short period of time in this world and not just live on regrets.