2007

Well, all i can say about 2007 will be that it has been 'the' year. It's the hectic year, the year i take my 'a' levels and most importantly, the year i realize that i've to grow and wisen up. It's the year when i finally know the direction i want to take in my life and have the courage and determination to go about executing the steps needed in order to achieve what i want. Essentially, it is the year in which i finally have a goal in life. Most of the time, i feel that i am living in this world that is shrouded with much confusion and not to mention, much 'cluelessness'. I don't know what i want to do in life and is just passing through the motion. Everyone around me seems to have it going around them as they know what they want to do and has a headstart compared to me. Although i ask myself many times and even consult many people...i still am at point zero. However, after all the stress and 'bumping arounds' that i experience this year, i finally realized what i really want to do in life. Although i am still doubtful on whether i can achieve my goals, as i think i screw up big on my 'a' levels, i try to remain optimistic that nothing is too late. I will just have to pick myself up again and not give up.
Well, for starters, i am going to start work next week. Who knows this experience will be another corner stone in my life in which the experiences will equip me for life. Many of my friends are already working, whereas for the guys, they are serving NS. It seems after 'a' levels, all our goals kinda 'branch out'. It's hard to believe that just a few months before we are all of the same mind and spirit, to ace our exams and get good grades. Well, of course we are still on the same mind for the results and are eagerly and apprehensively waiting for them. However, it just feels different as all of us are doing different things and not meeting one another as often. It just shows how time flies. All of us will have different agendas now and things will be different. It feels just yesterday in which i entered college. Well, hopefully, 2008 will be an even better year.
For now, i am learning how to drive! Feel a little nervous during the first practical lesson as i had not touched the wheels for a year due to concentrating on studies and such. Well but i do learn new things such as fully releasing the clutch which i didn't know previously. But i just have to see how it goes...i am on the hunt for cars for now. I know i sound impatient as i have yet to take my first theory test and here i am hunting for cars already but it just seems fun to just observe the cars in Singapore and deciding on which cars look nice and have a big boot for storing stuff. Been a very tiring December in which i do not know what i am busy about but it seems that i have wasted my time on nothing at all after finishing exams. On the bright side, i have my long overdue reprieve to rediscover myself but on the down side, i feel that i have wasted my time which can be used on more important matters. I guess i can blame it on the hectic schedule and the small series of misfortune that i have in December. I have yet to get rid of and clean up my room that is filled with piles of papers! Oh Dear! I am so ashamed when anyone goes to my house as my room is constantly in a mess for the past few years. People must have thought what a messy girl i am and how disorganized. I am thinking of getting new shelves as my books are 'overflowing' and there are boxes all around. It's time for real spring cleaning which has been delayed for a very long time due to my priority on studies. Ok, i think i should stop giving excuses as i can just blame myself for my laziness and procrastination. But i think i should put a stop to it and change for the better. And not to mention, start cleaning up as Chinese New Year is coming! Do hope that i can maintain this positive attitude this year! Jia you!